sad.

I don’t think I’ll ever get used to the hubby’s work schedule.  In fact, I don’t think either of us will ever get use to his horrible hours.  I really don’t know how women around the world deal with their husbands being gone for extended periods of time… they are a lot tougher than I am.  My hubby is only gone one day at a time, but the hours are not desirable.  They sometimes leave me feeling like a single Mom, and him a single Dad.  

We’ve been doing this for almost 4 years and it never seemed this difficult until we brought little Elle into the world.  Before I could fill my time with studying and friends, but now I fill my time with Elle.  This is never a bad thing, but now more than ever I wish he was home to spend time with us…. together as a family unit.  Four days a week we see each other for an hour… if we are lucky.  The other three days are great but they go by so fast with trying to squeeze family, friends, and home projects in the mix… and oh yeah…….. time for just us.  Some days it feels nearly impossible to lead a semi normal life.  

I’m sure one day we will lead the typical 9-5 schedule together, but that day seems so far away.  Since I work everyday as well, his schedule keeps Elle home with us more and only in the care of someone else for a short period of time, 3 days a week.  This is the number one reason and pretty much the only reason why John is still on this schedule. 

I know I need to keep a positive attitude, but I'm going to complain tonight because I really miss him!